“There is a small village just over this corner. Just Buddhists live there. Some of them may recognize my master as well,’ she said. She placed her hands in the Namaskar prayer position and bowed slightly in Abhiseleka’s direction. Abhiseleka put his thumbs in his mouth and stuck his tongue out at her.
“Well, if you believe you’re fooling us, you are sadly mistaken. As far as I’m concerned, no one should have to work under those conditions,” said Drogon. “I am glad you escaped, but there’s no way we can take you with us,” he said.
Her face began to redden, and Drogon wondered if she was going to try to throw him from his seat. She did not. She sat quietly for a moment, then began reciting the Sanskrit alphabet.
“My master taught me to apprehend the mind with Sanskrit. ‘A faithful servant and despicable master, is the mind,’ he would always say,” she replied. That was indeed one of the Karmapa’s favorite sayings when he was alive, and Pomdrakpa stopped his mantra altogether when she repeated it. The lamas looked at each other then looked down at Abhiseleka, who wore a slight grin.
They traveled for the rest of the afternoon until the valley which housed Kimiya’s village began to appear on the horizon, just before the grand wall of the Himalayas began. A blue river ran down from their peaks, feeding the misty air of the village. A large and colorful Tibetan Buddhist monastery sat perched high on a cliff overlooking the houses, market, and fields.
“This is my village,” said Kimiya. It’s name is Pharping. The two lamas looked at each other for one moment, simultaneously, then back straight ahead. Their new destination was also known as Yanglesho to the Tibetans. The originator of Tibetan Buddhism, The Lotus Born, was said to have gained his enlightened state in a cave somewhere near Pharping. This state was referred to by the Mahasiddhas as “Mahamudra.”
Neither Pomdrakpa nor Drogon Renchen had visited Pharping since the Karmapa had died. They were too wrapped up in their own political designs to apply any honest efforts towards their practices. The guilt bore heavily on them, and they recognized the “crazy wisdom” techniques as the Karmapa’s trademark. Pharping was a place of pilgrimage for Buddhists, lay people and clergy alike. It was a place to avoid for a Lama-turned-merchant.
“You know, the Buddha warned against practitioners like you,” she said, “that would take what they learned and swindle people with that knowledge. Have you ever been to the Temple of Kali? That’s the place Buddha learned compassion,” she said. She looked at Abhiseleka, who was smiling with a big gap toothed grin. The Lamas had turned green. Pomdrakpa had pulled the long stemmed pipe from it’s yak leather holster and the small ceramic container for the hashish opium mixture he and Drogon had been smoking. He crouched down, away from the wind and lit the pipe with a sulfur match, taking a long and satisfying draw from it. His eyes glazed over almost immediately and he handed it to Drogon. They passed it between them again and Pomdrakpa placed it back in it’s holster.
They sat in silence for a while, until Kimiya saw the road that would take them to the Kali Temple, properly named the Dakshinakali Temple. It was a narrow road that had a steep incline.
“This is where we turn,” she said. Drogon Renchen pulled on the reins, stopping the horses in the middle of the road. He was looking at the mountain and thinking it was a bad idea to even attempt it. He didn’t say anything, though; Kimiya was very excitable.
“You’re just too intoxicated,” she said, “trade me places.” She climbed over Drogon and clenched the reins from his hands, pushing him aside with her hips.
“Those horses don’t know you; they won’t follow your instruction,” he said. She sat quietly for a moment and closed her eyes, then tied the reins loosely to the bar at the front of the carriage. The horses began to forge ahead, up the mountainside, by Kimiya’s mental instruction. Abhiseleka laughed as Drogon Renchen covered his eyes with his hands. Pomdrakpa hung his head over the edge. Always a glutton for pain, he was afraid of heights, and yet he stared down the lengthening distance from the side of the road to the bottom of the valley below.
“Are you going to make it, Pomdrakpa?” Asked Abhiseleka. Pomdrakpa pushed his left hand out toward him and groaned. The fire of Kali was lit within the Lamas bodies; they were both dreading this unexpected visit to her temple. Abhiseleka had hatched a thought in his brain that Matangi was involved in this detour. He watched Kimiya, and though she was short with straight hair and brown eyes, whereas Matangi was tall with curly hair and green eyes, they moved the same way. He dismissed it and watched her drive the horses up the mountain without holding the reins, just like Matangi would do if she was here. She looked over at him and winked. He blushed.
The steep incline plateaued and gave way to a dense and fragrant forest, swaying in the cool breeze. The air was fresh and new. Kimiya directed the horses up the path. There was a wooden sign that read: “Temple of Dakshinakali, The Mother of the Universe.” As they neared the temple, the smell of goat meat cooking drove Pomdrakpa and Drogon into a frenzy, so much so that the horses veered off the path and headed towards it. Kimiya threw up her hands as if the movement was out of her control. They were now on a lesser worn path through the forest, away from the temple.
The sounds were deafening, as the sun was beginning to set. The monkeys called from the treetops. It sounded as if they were beating their chests. There was a cacophony of bird calls as well, that one could not be separated from another. It was a solid wall of sound. As they travelled deeper into the forest, the smoke from a fire became thick on the path. A boy came out to greet them with his hands in the namaskar position.
“Come, and eat with us; my mother and father have sent me to get you. You can park your horses there and it’s just down this path,” he said. It was strange he did not announce his name. He seemed eager to get back to the fire. “Come, come; it’s almost ready,” he said. Kimiya tied the reins to a tall papery barked Birch tree. Abhiseleka stayed behind with her, but the lamas followed the hungry boy. She extended her hand to him and they began walking.
“I’m sorry I sent you away with such incompetent fools, Abhiseleka,” she said.
“Matangi!” he said.
“Don’t blow our cover; we’ve got a good thing going here,” she said. He looked at her and she, for just one moment was Matangi. Then she was the Dakini Kimiya again, walking with her head held high as if to gain a little more height. She was just a little taller than Abhiseleka. He smiled and had nothing to say. They walked, hand in hand towards the little boy’s fire with his parents.
When they arrived upon the scene, the lamas were tearing into the goat meat. They acted as if they hadn’t eaten for years. It scared Abhiseleka; he remembered his vision from earlier, when the lamas were tearing Goldach apart. Then he remembered, and released his hand from Kimiya’s. She was there too, devouring her friend’s flesh. It was another lifetime, but it still made him wonder if he was in the wrong place.
She walked up to him and held his hand again. He saw something terribly disturbing in his mind’s eye. There was a lama, dressed in yellow, beating a hand drum and chanting a strange incantation. He looked closer, at his face, and saw that it was he who officiated the ceremony, the one where Goldach was torn limb from limb. He started sweating. Cold beads appeared on his forehead and upper lip.
“Sometimes you’re the hunter, and sometimes you’re the prey,” she said. She gripped Abhiseleka’s slippery hand a little tighter, then released. She bent down and kissed him on the forehead. “Please forgive me, Abhiseleka,” she said. He looked at her, then to the lamas, then to the family officiating this ceremony. That’s when they came up to greet Abhiseleka and Kimiya.
“Welcome, welcome,” said the man. “My name is Sandeep. My wife is Sunjata, and my son, whom you have already met, is called Yuvaraj. Please, sit down with us and eat. You’re friends tell me you are on a long journey. You must be hungry, and you’re in luck. This is the prasad from our sacrifice to Mother Kali at the temple,” he said. “I insist that you eat some with us and share Mother Kali’s blessing.”
Abhiseleka looked at Kimiya and she elbowed him in the ribs. Let’s sit down with Drogon and Pomdrakpa at the fire, Kimiya thought at Abhiseleka. She took his hand and twisted him over to his place next to Pomdrakpa, his spiritual teacher. He was beginning to realize that he was not going to get out of this. Sunjata would come around to his spot in front of the fire. He would have to taste the stringy, greasy goat meat, leaving not a morsel on the plate, lest he rouse Kali’s anger. He hung his head down at the thought, just as Sunjata walked from the tent towards he and Kimiya at the fire. She elbowed him in the ribs yet again.
“Would you please stop doing that?” He asked Kimiya. Sunjata was standing there, holding a silver dish piled high with goat meat. She handed Kimiya a smaller plate.
“For the boy,” she said. Kimiya forked an overgenerous portion from the dish for Abhiseleka. He groaned. She handed it over to him. Sunjata nodded her head and smiled.
“A big plate for a big boy; it will make you grow big and strong. Mother Kali’s blessing,” she said to him. He was supposed to eat the meat with his hands, like the lamas. Just don’t think about it, Abhiseleka. It’s not a big deal, thought Kimiya. The lamas were finally reaching the end of their servings. They both looked in Abhiseleka’s direction and chuckled. He raised his upper lip in a snarl towards them. They laughed harder. Kimiya took a large greasy bite of the goat’s leg, tasting the smoky fire over which he had been cooked. It was delicious to her; the energy of the ritual was fresh on the meat, very hot and angry.
Now that everyone was seated and eating, Sandeep seized the opportunity to make small talk. He addressed the lamas, disregarding the others.
“Men, it is an honor to have two initiates in our midst,” he said. He motioned with his joined hands in their direction and bowed. They returned the gesture. “I see you have eaten heartily from Mother Kali’s sacrifice,” he said, “and pledged yourself to her.” He chuckled, and looked towards the sky. The ground shook and the sky rumbled, now hanging low above them. A group of devotees travelled down the path, headed for the camp, singing a hymn to Kali. They carried two large posts and spools of twine. When the group reached the fire, they seized the lamas and tied them, hands and feet, to the posts. Abhiseleka and Kimiya were also seized. They were shackled and led, along with Drogon and Pomdrakpa, towards the temple of Dakshinakali.